a dream is all

Dirty dishes in the sink. Full warm bellies. An empty bottle of wine. Sweet kisses. Saturday evening. No worries, no fears. Only reality. Or maybe a stroll down the way, or a night of dancing and laughter with friends. Then you and I would leave and go home, to our home. Our love is sweet, and good. Comforting to our souls. Please tell me you'll stay. Forever and never leave. Because I want to savor today, and fall asleep to your song. Until we are 80.

This is all I want, really.

To love and be loved freely.

What peace and joy to awake, knowing you are loved fully. Completely. for who you are, and not someone you want to become, or silly ideals. And to love someone the same with grace flowing. All the nitty and gritty. Flaws and our best sides that we like to show. Love will cover it all, I believe. Hard work no doubt, but two individuals devoted to making it work through anything. A team, really. Moving through life, loving, learning, and enhancing each others worlds. Becoming one.

My heart aches, all the way to my fingertips. This sorrow is painful, misery creeps in and wants to stay. O pain why won't you go away?

Tonight, I am alone, just like every other night. And you are some where out there in this world. Please be safe OK? We will meet when the time is right.

I can't wait to share my life with you, whoever your are, and fall asleep to our song.

michigan pride has taken root, and hasn't left

A Michigan Summer, I miss you.
Beaches & Sand Duns, Noshville, fireflies, conversations, community.

A Monday morning in Thailand.
Loud Thai TV, intimate conversations.
Hazelnut lattes, and my old computer.
Two hearts full of love, about to burst.
I think back with fond memories.

Hazy Indian Mornings, I miss you.

You, I miss you.

a twirl & a dance on a sunday morning

Hope

Love never fails.


And I smile.


Teach me Lord to be patient and wait, and hope in you alone.
I believe in you. How could I not?
You are faithful and true.
Forever you will be.

And I smile.

I hope.

I rest.

shout out!

A shout out to anyone who knows of a any affordable safe, simple housing arrangements in Montreal. I've been looking, and its a killer. Everything is expensive, even hostels for that amount of time. I'll be there September 6-20th. Thank you kindly,

Yours Truly,

Anita

bad day

Have you ever felt like the worst version of yourself? I feel like that X3, no X4. I had a bad day at work, I'm really tired, and tears are streaming down my face.
Why? May cow jai. Why is it getting harder? Adjusting to life here, I suck at it. I don't fit in, I feel like I have no life, no friends, and the worst part is, is that I'm choosing it to be this way. Even writing this out, I sound like a horrible selfish beast. I am so incredibly blessed, yet I am so unhappy.

I love travelling, going here and there, but I'm tired of it. I'm tired of doing this being alone. EVERYTHING I do, or see or experience, reminds me of my poor state.

Why?

It seems its been easy for you to move on.

I'm a mess, and I'm going to go drink some tea, no wine.

tv & korea

So, I really don't watch much TV. But sometimes I do. Like on Thursdays. On Thursday nights, usually after I work a double I watch some Korean Soap/Dramas that are on the local TV station. Funny eh? I think so, and I love it. I was really following one during the winter, but the series ended, and now I'm trying to get into the one that is currently on the TV. Sometime I feel like I have no life.
Korea is cool.

พี สะเดิด - จี่หอย / pee saderd - Jee hoi

Man tong thon

Then the LORD answered me and said:

Write the vision, and make it plain on tablets, that he may run who reads it.
For the vision is yet for an appointed time, But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie.
Though it tarries, wait for it.
Because surely it will come, It will not tarry.

Habakkuk 2: 2-3

Look among the Nations and watch- be utterly astounded; For I will work a work in your days which you would not believe, though it were told you.
Habakkuk 1: 5

On that day I will raise up the tabernacle of David, which has fallen down, and repair its damages; I will raise up its ruins, and rebuild it as in the days of oldl that they may possess the remnat of Edom. And all the Gentiles who are called by my name. Says the LORD, who does this thing.
Behold the days are coming, says the LORD, when the plowman shall overtake the reaper, and the treader of grapes him who sows seed; the mountains shall drip with sweet wine and all the hills shall flow with it.
I will bring back the captives of my people Isreal; they shall build waste cities and inhabit them. They shall plant vineyards and drink wine from them; They shall also make gardens, and eat fruit from them. I will plant them in thier land, and no longer shall they be pulled up from the land I have given them, says the LORD your God.
Amos 9: 11-15


...And it shall come to pass in that day, That the mountains shall drip with new wine, the hills shall flow with milk, and all the brooks of Judah shall be flooded with water; A fountain shall flow from the house of the LORD and water the valley of Acacias.
Joel 3: 18




I will heal thier backsliding, I will love them freely.
for my anger has turned away from him.
I will be like the dew to Israel; He shall grow like the lily, and lengthen his roots like Lebanon.
His branches shall spread; His beauty shall be like an olive tree, and his frangance like Lebanon. Those who dwell under his shadow shall return; They shall be revived like grain, and grow like a vine. Thier scent shall be like the wine of Lebanon.
Hosea 3: 4-7



Then the LORD will be zealous for his land, a pity for his people. The LORD will answer and say to his people; Behold I will send you grain and new wine and oil, and you will be satisfied by them; I will no longer make you a reproach among the nations.
Joel 2: 18-19

Fear Not, O land;
Be glad and rejoice, For the LORD has done marvelous things!
Do not be afraid, you beasts of the field; for the open pastures are springing up, and the tree bears its fruit;
the fig tree and the vine yeild their strength. Be glad then, you children of Zion, and rejoice in the LORD your God; For he has given you the former rain faithfully, and he will cause the rain to come down for you-
The former rain, and the latter rain in the first month, The threshing floors shall be full of wheat,
And vats shall overflow with new wine and oil.
I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten...
Then you shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, I am the LORD your God and there is no other. My people shall never be put to shame.
Joel 2: 21-27



Come let us return to the LORD; for he has tornm but he will heal us; He has stricken, but he will bind us up. After two days he will revive us;
On the third day he will raise us up, that we may live in his sight.
Let us know,
Let us pursue the knowledge of the LORD.
His going forth is established as the morning; He will come to us like the rain, like th latter and former rain on the earth.
Hosea 6:1-3

For then, I will restore to the peoples a pure language, that they all may call on the name of the LORD, to serve him with one accord.
Zephaniah 3: 9

Though the fig tree may not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines;
though the labor of the olive tree may fail; and the fields yeild no food;
though the flock may be cut off from the fold, and there be no herd in the stalls-
Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer's feet, and he will make me walk on my high hills.
Zephaniah 3: 17-19