change

Change can be a beautiful thing.

it shifts you, molds you, and refines you.

Looking back, I never thought I would be where I am at right now. I thought I would be at a completely different place, I was prepared for different than this. But it is not yet time.

Why do tears come at the weirdest times, and grasp me like they do. I want to be done being sad. Jesus, you are good.

God, you have a purpose, a plan, and it's beautiful. Even if I don't see all the details, I trust.

I'm going to Montreal this weekend. I'm excited, but it's going to be difficult. It's so ironic in a way. Why is life so funny some times?

I've got to learn some French.

there's nothing on earth like the piano

nicaragua

I stumbled upon these photos today. Man, my mom and dad are amazing! I have so much respect for them. In the 70's my mom went to Nicaragua and spent a couple years serving as a nurse doing Voluntary service, way out in the boondocks in a town called Hinotega. That's were she met my dad, who was living there as well doing community development in the community of Matagalpa. They got married (surprise) in the states, and then went back to Central America for a few more years before they moved back to the states to raise their family. I have heard so many stories as a little girl growing up, and to this day I have been influenced by their hearts for people and this world. They were the first out of their families for generations to travel outside of the US. Now you wonder where I get it from! I love these pictures. To me they speak of simplicity, purity, and calm. I love how they look like hippies as well.

"my soul, wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from him."

Pslam 62:5

You will do these things, and even greater.
We were destined for great things. We were not made to be broken.

Wait. I will restore.

God, I put my hope and trust in you alone. Fill me, use me, and teach me how to love, and give grace, as you have given me. I thank you, for your love transforms hearts, heals brokenness, and makes all things new. I look ahead, forgetting all that's in the past, and seek to love boldly by your word and spirit.

a list

Twenty ten

Learn French(as a fourth language.....)
Live in Canada
Start and complete something
Watch the sunrise & sunset on the beach
Visit Thailand
refurnish an old piece of furniture
Save money
give one thing away a day
compose a song
learn to play guitar better
re-learn old classical pieces of music on the piano
become an expert on wine

life { things I want to do before I die...it contains things I wrote long ago, most recently updated*}

Visit the Himalaya mountains again, and Trek in Nepal
Travel all through Europe
pierce my nose*O5
Visit many places in Asia
Become a Barista, and learn all things coffee *12
Get married. Only if he is the right one for me, my best friend & the love of my life *11
Publish a coffee table book of photography {not a cheesy one}
Sail on a boat
Visit Varanasi, and BKK with my husband someday
see the red brick building in chicago
live debt free. always.
visit the tea hills in Darjeeling
create a home somewhere *11
learn how to drive stick shift*O6
Get passionate about a cause and spend time helping it, instead of just thinking about it.
not own a house
take dance lessons
go to the zoo, and spend all day there
write a letter to the editor
become a mother someday
write a book, don't worry about getting it published. so what!
surprise someone
hitch hike
see the northern lights
Accept myself for who I am
go to an island somewhere*O9
go to a drive in movie theatre
smoke one full cigarette *11
own a pug
spend New Year's Eve in NYC
fly somewhere on standby
sleep on the beach
watch Casablanca
learn sign language
learn Pennsylvania Dutch
own a convertible*O6
sleep on a roof under the stars*O5
prepare for, and run a marathon
send a message in a bottle
fall deeply in love*O8 *11
learn how to use chopsticks*O5
visit P.E.I
create a map room with all my maps
dye my hair all colors*
learn how to knit* O9
live in a one room apartment, specifically with a squatty*O8
live in the middle of a city somewhere. right downtown.
learn how to make sushi*O8
go wine tasting in Napa valley, France, and Italy (Italy*11)
learn how to crochet*10
learn how to play the violin
learn how to give Thai massage*O9
learn how to cut hair..for real*O9
visit Niagara falls
buy an old typewriter*10
learn how to change a tire
grow a papaya tree to make somtam
visit Montreal*10
teach English as a second language*O9
visit Istanbul
create and cultivate a garden
make apple cider
take a road trip through the New England States
host many dinner parties, and make use of all my chopsticks, and dinnerware I've saved for a destined time.
live in Asia*O7-O9
learn how to drive a motorcycle*O8
watch a live hockey game
learn Thai*O7-O9
ice skate on a country pond
read the idiot*O8-O9
travel to Nicaragua
visit South America
visit a coffee farm & help harvest the coffee
Go to Africa and love*O4

Wondergirls-Nobody(korean)

sek loso som sarn

always makes me smile

O my goodness. Lots has happened recently, Ok maybe not lots, but a bit has happened. I went to Seattle to visit my bestie Connie 2 weeks ago. I had a blast! Love that city; the food, the coffee, the wine. Vino is the best.

Now I'm working, working, working. From now all the way through the summer, I need to work everyday, all day. It's called saving. Saving for whats next. I'm blessed to have this job, but sometimes I get tired of serving food.

In two weeks, I'm going to Montreal for 3 days. I'm SUPER excited about this. I'm exploring some options regarding school this fall. I need to step it up on my french skills. They are seriously lacking right now. No worries, I'll learn French eventually.

My parents just put their house on the market for sale. My parents have never moved. I was born and raised in this home. I love our home. It is sad to me, but I am excited for what is next for them.

I smell change a coming.

A cold has come, and I now have a tickle in my throat. I dislike this.

Today it felt like SUMMMER! So warm, so breezy, so lovely. I had a picnic, I called my friend Ashley, and she came and joined me. It was delightful.


Everyday I miss you. Everyday. I thought that it would get easier, and in ways it has, but it really hasn't. I think you're a gem, and one of a kind. You've made my life a happier one, just by being in it. if only for a chapter. It was a beautiful, exciting, and lovely chapter of my life.

I wish you the best, and I'm very excited for what lies in store for you. I genuinely happy for you.

As I'm moving on, I hope you are too.